I wonder will bb becomes a gamer next time?? He will be so excited & kicks most of the time when I play bejeweled. He responds especially well to the sound effects that the jewels explode... so sometimes I just play for the sake of the effects... kind of bo-liao but nothing much I can do now except bedrest. He also seems to be more responsive to his daddy whenever he reads a story to him... &&&&&... he seems to be so quiet when he hears my voice!!! Hmmmm... he is making me so jealous! =P Probably he always hear me speak... he becomes so neutral already.

Will it be just 3 weeks.... 5 weeks.... or beyond that for the final arrival??? V excited & at the same time kind of having mixed feelings... 1st timer.... don't know what to expect... don't know how well I can tolerate the pain... I just hope that he can gain as much weight as possible now & take all the nutrients & dump the junk food I eat!

Today's scan result is gd!!! Yeah yeah yeah.... can watch Star Awards at home on Sun!! Aiyah... looks like hor I am going to have heart attack everytime I go scan le. Heart attack again on next Thurs... BB's weight is good... he seems to be bigger than expected. Think I eat too much le... also put on lotsa weight. Surprisingly, I did not put on any weight in "chalet".... although my hubby stocked up lotsa food for me. The doc is satisfied with it .... since he is going to see this world much earlier than the estimated date. I hope to admit only near the delivery date so that I can opt for a better class ward. Really detest those medical students surrounding me & ask lotsa qns.

So now... what I do is to have plenty of bedrest... no housework for me... no changing of fish water...only feed the fishes, minimise movement as far as possible & stay in bed most of the time... all done by hubby ... hopefully with all these, it will help.

Lime is v cute... she called me up recently after learning from May... she said if she knew earlier... she wanted to come to "chalet" to chit chat with me. She sounded like very saiyang to miss the chance! She even suggested to come to my place to pay me a visit for I rejected. I don't want to trouble her... instead chat with her through the phone that day. I guess she has lotsa stuffs to relate ba... hope to meet her up after my delivery... gals.. meanwhile talk talk more to her.

Looks like I am going back to the "chalet" soon... haiz... the result is not ideal today... if Sat result dips further... then I really need to stay there once again. I really pray hard hard the result is gota be fine this Sat. And the gynae is kind of confirm that I will be delivering next month. I am going to bedrest from now... can only walk abit around the house... cannot even go out now... I don't mind to stuck at home... at least for me, home is so much a cosy place to be in.

At least during this week... I have done up the things which I need to. Maybe I overworked myself at home... maybe... maybe... anyways things completed... if really bo bian need to stay there... then have to guai guai lor. Now I also need lotsa +ve mindset + attitude + beliefs! Bless me!

Finally I am back home after 13 days of torturing!! In fact my gynae did not agree to let me go home... her intention is to let me stay till labour! C'mon manz... she did say that she will allow me to if my result is higher than the expected limit! Have done numerous monitoring over there & all along the results are consistent except one parameter.

The scan is to be performed on every Mon & Thurs... the result was still low on Monday monitoring... able to achieve only 4.8 whereas the baseline is 6.0. However yesterday's scan was 7.93!! My hubby & I are so overjoyed & even the sonographer who is the specialist in this field said that there's nothing wrong with the levels at all & v surprised Y I need to stay! She is not a woman of WORDS!!! WTF!!! My hubby heard that as well... She did say that if I am able to achieve > 6.0, she will let me home!!! Maybe she never come across a case when the level is low, it will go above the limit ba...I understand that if the result is unsatitisfactory, I have every reason to stay, but we see no point of staying there if the result is okay! She simply does not understand the point that staying there for 8 weeks is simply a torture... she thinks there really a 6 star hotel meh??? So pissed off! I am v willing to go back for regular monitoring even though the result is okay now. And the point is... I may not be delivering next month if everything goes back to normal... imagine I need to stay down there for more than 2 months.... I think I will have prenatal depression!!! Simply crazy! Hahaha.... yesterday was the very very 1st time I have such a strong urge of leaving & I stayed soooo firm during the reasoning... now I clearly understand when one is being forced to the wall... he/she can do anything...

Anyway back home! 1st thing I did... fed the fishes... it really saddens me to see no more koi inside the big fish tank...now it looks really empty without her :( Only 4 fishes left in the tank... maybe will get new friends for them as the time goes by... see how it goes.

I gota many things to do over the next few days... I want to complete everything before the next Wed's appointment to prepare for the worst. Purchase the remaining items, done up the bb's room... packing etccc... so many things to worry & yet unable to do anything over the stay there! During these 2 weeks, my hubby has been really supportive... & I can see that he is so miserable in the absence of me at home... haha... at least gain something that $$$ can't be bought... that is the stronger bonds among us.

So many different types of people here... there was this little girl discharged yesterday seemed to be underage... for most at her secondary school gave birth to a baby boy. Many of her class/school mates were here & the room was crowded with kids. 2 police officers came yesterday & looked for her parents... hmmm .... so high possibility that she is less than 16 y/o.

Another patient was diagnosed with H1N1 +ve. I thought H1N1 epidemic was over already ... guess a few cases on hand at this point of time is still common & just left unreported. I think during the stay here... I can only blog on those I have seen or encounter here... kind of boring but no choice... cos I am stuck in this boring place for a while... 12 days of stay already! OMG!!!

Hair is getting whiter & whiter as the days goes by... still got 1 month plus to go! Now u ask me what date is it today.... I can give u an instant reply without the need to pause & think! Last time when I was rotting at home, I could even mix up the days...everyday is like a weekend to me.

Very surprised to receive Isaac's sms yesterday evening... we have not been in contact since the day I left. He has a job lobang for me... sounds gd since it is a reputable & new set up company, one of Ecolab's major customer. Job scope covers safety aspects... hmmm.... see how it goes... not in the right mood to think straight now.

MY FAV KOI IS DEAD!!! :(((

Forgot to update that koi threw her 小姐脾气 for the whole 2 days last week! Not eating...kept swimming on top & kept splashing the water till my floor got all wet! I did not really know what happened... did not do anything abnormal to them except change their brands of food. Ha... used to get premier grade for them & had it changed to normal grade... she could well sense it manz! The rest of the smaller fishes are behaving just fine. I started to analyse the differences in these 2 grades:

Premier:-
color: red
smell: fishy & smelly

Normal:-
color: green
smell: no smell ( I love it!)

I am wondering whether she is so smartie! Able to distinguish the smell of the food she usually takes. Luckily I did standby the premier grade & quickly have it changed. She started to behave herself gradually & started to eat the food... what an expensive fish to rear.... she is very atah leh! Realising she is growing bigger & bigger... in fact the space for her now is kind of small for her to swim freely... sighhh... is this an indication to part with her already??? I went to check out a koi pond in hospital just a couple of days ago & came to realise that the usual big koi fishes swimming in the pond were all gone!!! It was replaced by small koi.... OMG.... all dead??? Like that how to put her into the pond? Hmmmm.... I have a very wishful thinking... that is to build a koi pond in my house!!! Ermmm.... sounds absurd right??? It's going to be a very majar reno like that.... as we need to take the safety precaution into account... sure spend a huge bomb on this wish of mine.... hmmmm... wait for some windfall then... but meanwhile the most practical move is to look for another suitable place for her & let her live happily with the other mates of the same type.


Btw Hui:- if your reason for wanting to go is entirely due to him...he has made u frustrated.... pissed u off & stuffs... make u lose your passion towards work...then I suggest u wait for him to leave before u. It is really not worthwhile to leave cos' of his incompetence & indecisiveness! OOppss... Sounds kind of familiar...?? =P I guess the saddest person to see u go is your soul partner in work.